It's a good day today
I woke up today feeling more refreshed than I have in a while. I checked my phone messages, as I do every morning when I get up. I got one from my fiancé saying that I had "made his day" by providing him with some new music albums I had just bought and that he was feeling really happy today. It made me smile to know that it brought him some happiness, considering how depressed he's been. I smiled to myself.
Things have been going very well this week, so I thought I'd share, because I'm so surprised myself. After a bad start to the year I didn't think things were going to look up for a long time.
First off, I received a letter of offer for a new job this week. I am so miserable in my current job and the management treat me so poorly, so this couldn't have come at a better time. I start in 2 weeks! I am excited and scared because it's completely new to me (I work in goods procurement, and I am moving to services procurement), but most of all I am happy and welcoming the change.
Second, my fiancé and I have done a lot of talking lately (for the past month or so) and we've decided to continue with our wedding plans. We are working very hard on communication and affection. It seems that we both had made a lot of assumptions about our relationship and what we thought each other wanted. So I am glad we cleared that up. So the past week has been very good for us. He surprised me with dinner this week, which almost never happens (he lacks confidence in the kitchen since no one has ever taught him to cook) and it was really good. This weekend, he's taking me for breakfast. I am thoroughly enjoying our time together. I've missed this.
Lastly, I feel good. I feel confident. I'm working very hard at allowing myself to feel my emotions and to deal with my emotional baggage. I'm also telling myself that I am not a bad person and that I am not inferior. My therapist sees progress. I feel like we've made imense progress in the past 2 months.
So this morning, I am off work today, and I am listening to The Black Keys, reading the paper, drinking my coffee, and relaxing with my cats, and well, taking time for myself.
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