ha, yeah i feel good as new!!!! i hate flies they're everywhere:(

Flies are like ladybugs with their spots on the inside ...

Okay, maybe not; I just made myself gag.

You could make them feel the power of your swatter? Or you could be the capture-and-release type, and let them out the window? Or you could be the Karate Kid type and catch them with chopsticks?

Oh, the choices.

i think i'll just open the window and hush them away -----FLY AWAY LITTLE FLIES FLYYYYYYYY AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! or else i could chase them with the pepper spray that finding got me to keep away stalkers. but i don't want to kill them... i don't want to be.....A FLY MURDERER...

You could be a Fly Liberator, working for the freedom of flies everywhere.

Of course, your flies may want to stay inside, where the food is.

Me, I'm probably on the wall of every fly post office: WANTED DEAD or DECAYING, Horrible murderer, with a picture of me grinning through the grid of a swatter ...

Yeah, don't spray your pepper spray around your room. It'll get in your eyes and just generally mess with your sinuses and stuff. And I don't know if it works on flies. :-)

OH i havn't tried it out yet.. what happens when you spray it in someone's eyes..? does it actually blind them...

you know who is in a REALLY bad mood today. she won't leave me alone.

It's the concentrated oil from peppers (I could look up the name, but really, would it help?) :-) I think it's acidic, but the irritation is not as bad as an organic acid. Basically, it's meant as a safe deterrent, so I would imagine the person would recover, even from a direct blast.

Of course, it would be mean, but I did for a second imagine an experiment ... :-) Stay strong, sweety. She can't really do anything to hurt you.

....i was imagining that experiment too..

she hurts my feelings.

Two of my brothers are cops and in order to be certified they had to be sprayed with pepper spray

why did they have to be sprayed with pepper spray starry?

I know. One thing you could maybe work with is to realize that you have control of your own feelings. You don't have to let her hurt you. It's difficult, and it goes against what we think of as "family", but it seems to me that she started it.

You have to live with her; you don't have to accept her opinions.

i suppose you're right. i'm trying to ignore her:)

Huh. Star, I wonder if being cops helps your brothers deal with how your dad treated them. Like maybe, using the anger to make the world safer. (Of course, the reason I wonder is maybe we can find a way for you to use yours.)

I don't know, cause they carry it, that's the way they become certified. Senseless if you ask me.

that isn't very nice...

They're trying to get them used to how it feels, in case someone uses it on them. Part of the reaction people have is their fear that they'll be blind. You don't want a cop folding up just because of pepper spray; they might get killed, and I understand that's worse.

And well, it also makes them less likely to use it on someone else unless they need it, now that they know how it feels.

i suppose that makes sense...

Yeah, I guess there is some sense to it, I just didn't like that happening to my brothers.

that makes sense starry, i wouldn't like it to happen to my family either..

They make soldiers in Basic Training go into a room full of tear gas, which is worse, and take their gasmasks off. And at least police trainees have a choice. :-)

i don't think i ever want to be a soldier or a police lady after hearing that....

You're afraid of loud noises, sweety. :-)

Something peaceful and nice, for you.

like a flower picker?

Or a flower planter. No, not like a window box, like a gardener. Or an art teacher. Something where as few people as possible are shooting at you.

if i were an art teacher the students would shoot at me all the time!!!!!!!!! or else i could open a bubble factory. i've always wanted to do that;)

You'd probably go broke servicing all the warranties ...

Why would art students make holes in you with a gun?